The thin line between hate and grace

"Father forgive them for they know not what they do." ~ Jesus as recorded in Luke 23:34
"Then one of the criminals who were hanged blasphemed Him, saying 'If you are the Christ, save Yourself and us." But the other answering, rebuked him, saying, 'do you not even fear God, seeing you are under the same condemnation? And we indeed justly, for we receive the due reward of our deeds; but this Man has done nothing wrong." Then he said to Jesus, "Lord, remember me when You come into Your kingdom? And Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you, today you will be with Me in Paradise". Luke 23:29-43

My heart is heavy as I write this piece. The conflict in my soul drives me to God's word and into continual prayer. The tragic murder Christmas night of a young police officer in Newman California has deeply affected the community. The cry for justice carried into the nation and fanned the flames in the current political controversy over legal and illegal immigrants.
Officer Corporal Ronil Singh had legally immigrated to the United States from Fiji and was considered an "American patriot by those who knew him. The man suspected of  killing him in cold blood, has several aliases and is said to be an illegal alien. Thankfully he was quickly arrested after social media and the news spread his picture.
And just as quickly there spread an ugly layer of hate filled comments and suggestions on what should be done to the suspect and sadly, even hateful comments towards the fallen officer because he enjoyed hunting and fishing.

What is wrong with us as a society? Are we so blinded by the beam in our own eyes that we fail to see that we are no different than those on whom we spew our words of condemnation?
As I was struggling with my own emotions over this senseless crime (we have family members and friends who are police officers, and friends who knew Officer Singh), I recognized my desire for vengeance on the one who is suspected of killing him. The old "eye for an eye" seemed justifiable as I read comments on social media. After all, officer Singh was simply doing his job but was shot down in cold blood, widowing his wife and leaving his 5 month old child without a father. Certainly we are justified in crying out for the death of the one who killed him.
But then...
The soft voice of grace penetrated my heart.
"He (the suspect) is in need of My grace, My salvation. Pray for him."
It is a bitter pill to swallow, but I know it is true. 
How quickly we are able to jump into the boat of hate and the fight for vengeance, but how difficult it seems to be to apply grace to those who are in most desperate need.
Show me how Father. I cannot do it on my own.
As I prayed I recalled a story I had read about Corrie ten Boom on how she had been able to forgive a guard who had severely beaten her and her sister Betsie when they were imprisoned in Ravensbruk for hiding Jews during the Holocaust. Betsie had subsequently died in that prison from her injuries and malnutrition. But at a speaking conference after the war, there was the guard standing before Corrie asking her to forgive him. She knew she should forgive, because she had been forgiven, but the memory of her sister's death clung close to her heart. She stood there wrestling with her emotions as the man extended his hand, looking for forgiveness. She said it was the most difficult thing she had ever had to do. She knew she should forgive as she'd been forgiven, but the actual act of doing so was beyond her human capabilities. But knowing that forgiveness is not an emotion, but an act of will, she prayed silently "Jesus help me! I can lift my hand. I can do that much. You supply the feeling."

And then God's grace did what only His grace can do. She was able to genuinely forgive him.
(I encourage you to read the whole story. You can find it in Guideposts Classics: Corrie ten Boom on Forgiveness at https://www.guideposts.org)

It is a thin line that we walk between hate and grace. The choice is ours as to where we are going to dwell. Those who choose to hold on to hate and bitterness become captive to their choice, and those who choose to embrace grace are liberated to love as we have been loved.

We aren't responsible for the choices, behavior and actions of others, but we are responsible for our own.
What will your choices, behaviors and actions be as we finish out the old year and head into the new?
I pray you will choose grace, forgiveness, kindness and love. May the legacy we leave to those who follow us be one that leads them to Christ.

May God richly bless each of you, strengthening you where you feel weak, comforting you where you need comfort, and encouraging you when you feel faint of heart. Above all things, may you find peace as you rest in His loving embrace.

Changing seasons with an unchanging God

"Fear not, for I am with you. Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

As I sat here this morning watching the scene before me change from sunshine to heavy fog, and then to watery sunlight, I couldn't help but marvel over God's great love and how intimately involved He is in our lives. The first time I ever really paid attention to the verse above was when I was working as a telephone operator just the year after I graduated from high school.  Although I thought I knew everything there was to know about life when I graduated, I quickly realized the world was much bigger, and more difficult than I had imagined. That particular day on the switchboard hadn't been especially wonderful, and I was contemplating what my future held. When the light lit up on the switchboard panel before me, I had no clue how the next few moments would profoundly affect my life.
The voice of the young man on the other end of the line was not interested in placing a call, but was adamant that I understood how much God loved me, and made me promise I would read Isaiah 41:10 when I got home. Amused but a bit curious by the call, I made certain to keep my promise.
The knowledge of God's deep love became profoundly clear as I read the passage.
"Fear not, for I am with you." It's as though God was speaking directly to my worries and concerns about moving out of my parents home and into the vast unknown. "Be not dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you, I will help you." The confirmation for strength that I knew I didn't have. Leaving the security of the known could only come with the  assurance that I was not alone.
"I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."  There He was, telling me I didn't need to worry or fear, He had heard my unspoken prayers.
I cannot tell you the number of times this verse has brought me comfort and peace through the seasons of life.
And so as we head into another Christmas that has come and gone much too quickly, and a new year looming on the near horizon, I encourage you to remember. Remember the numerous joys of past Christmases. Remember the love of family. Remember the blessings God has poured out lavishly upon you and those you love.
Remember that He is the same, yesterday, today and forever and He has promised to never leave or forsake His children.
May you find His presence palatable this Christmas season and may you walk peaceably with Him throughout the coming year.

A way of escape

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name. You are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, Your Savior." Isaiah 43:1-3

California is under fire...literally. As I write my eyes are stinging from the smoke that has drifted into the canyon. The Camp fire that destroyed the town of Paradise is probably the biggest contributor of smoke, but there are several fires throughout the state. We are quite a distance from them, but the smoke drift is impacting a large portion of the state. The air quality for much of the area near us is in the Hazardous category. https://www.newsweek.com/california-fires-air-quality-map-pollution-update-shows-affected-areas-smoke-1218763 At the place where I work two days a week, the staff and clients were all wearing masks today. Seeing their post on Facebook made me glad I didn't have to work in the valley today, but also created concern for everyone who isn't able to escape to a higher altitude and a bit better air.  My children and grandchildren are among them. Although I am 22 miles away from the valley floor, I can feel the effects of being in the smoke from earlier in the week. I am glad it is less smoky here and pray that God will grant us a bit of rain to remove some of the smoke and help put out the fires. Even in that prayer though, I know it brings its own set of concerns, because the smoke is toxic and will pollute the ground and rivers when it rains, and too much will create mudslides in the fire ravaged areas.

It is in times such as this that I must not allow fear to dictate my thinking. So many fires in a bone dry state is enough to cause concern, but now with the smoky skies making it hard to breathe, and little to no hope of it ending soon, despair could easily become my companion. It has been absolutely heart wrenching to see all the devastation from all the fires.  So many have lost so much.

As I converse with people on social media, I see a very clear difference in those who trust God and those who don't. There are some who have lost everything, who still find their voice of praise in God's faithfulness to them. Others vent their disappointment and anger. It is obvious from their statements that they haven't been able to grasp the concept that God is bigger than all of this, and has a purpose and plan, even when we don't understand it. I can't imagine what it would be like to experience great loss without the knowledge of  who God is and how much He cares.

But knowing His word helps me settle my restless spirit. "God is our refuge and strength a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea; though the waters roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with its swelling." Psalm 46:1-3
An interesting thing about this particular Scripture. The first time I really paid attention to it was when my then 6 year old son shared it with me after he learned it in Sunday school. This is the same little boy that 3 years earlier doctors had told us was dying of kidney disease and probably wouldn't live past his eighth birthday, even if he were to receive a transplant. God had healed him completely though, without a transplant, long term medication or dialysis. Thirty three years later he is strong and healthy and continuing to share what he has learned from God's word with others, as  the youth pastor of our church.

Now there are many questions I will ask God when I get to heaven, one of them being why he spared my son, but my brother's son died of leukemia when he was only 8 years old.  We had prayed diligently for Bobby's health as much as we had prayed for DT's.

But then, I don't presume to understand the infinite mind of God.

His word tells me that He has a purpose and plan for my life, one not of destruction but to give me a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11) It also tells me that I don't need to fear. (Isaiah 41:10) He will never leave or abandon me. (Deuteronomy 31:5, Joshua 1:5, John 14:18)

When fear begins to raise it's ugly head and threaten my peace, God offers me a way of escape.  He holds His arms open wide and invites me to rest in His Presence and sufficiency. (2 Corinthians 2:9) His perfect love casts out fear. (1 John4:18) Even when the skies are smoky, even when it's hard to see or breathe, even when He doesn't answer the prayers they way I think He should.

Leaning in close I hear the sound of His heart.
Peace be still.  All is well.
You can trust Me.
                                                
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"He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress: My God, in Him I will trust."" Psalm 91:1&2

The tragedy of Tamar and the victory for the woman caught in adultery

Things aren't always as they appear

"Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall." 1 Corinthians 10:12

I had to take a break from the Senate Judiciary Committee hearing of Judge Brett Kavanaugh. Although I only watched a few minutes of it, I could feel myself getting sucked into the vortex and the anger of injustice stuck in my throat like a bone.

As I was pondering my response to it, the words "the tragedy of Tamar" came to mind followed almost immediately by the words "and the victory for the woman caught in adultery". I was curious as to what the correlation was, not only to what I was feeling, but to each other.

Upon rereading the account of Tamar, the tragedy is played out. Not only did her half brother rape her, then despised her and made a mockery of her, but then her other brother Absolom had Ammon murdered.  (you can read the account in 2 Samuel 13)

Fast forward to Jesus's day and the woman who was thrown before Him by the Pharisees. They had caught her in the act of adultery and wanted Jesus to judge her, hoping to find some way of accusing Him. His response was to stoop down and write in the sand as though He didn't hear them. When they continued to press Him, he responded "He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first.' (John 8:7)  Soon there were none standing to accuse her. With no one there to point a negative finger at her He responded to her in the grace that we all desire to receive..."Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more." (John 8:11)

Here I am now, sorting through the similarities and differences.  A sexual crime in both accounts, a vindication, and a command to go and sin no more.  The tragedy in Tamar's case was the assault not only to her body, but her character, because she would be deemed unworthy for marriage because she was no longer a virgin. The murder of Ammon may well have vindicated her, but it caused a deep rift in the family. A loss no matter how you look at it. The victory for the woman caught in adultery was, even though caught in the act and accused, she received grace and a command to go forward and sin no more.

So how does this all fit with what I've been watching unfold on TV?

As you will notice in the picture above, it looks like the face of a young woman with braids and a headband wearing earrings and bright red lipstick. If you examine it closer you see it is a necklace, some buttons, a couple pairs of earrings and a jeweled piece. Although an interesting picture of something made up from different parts, not the real deal. Not everything we see or hear is as we might initially perceive it to be. 

All this to say there are always some very compelling conversations on both sides of an argument.  Some that bring about tragedy and death, and others that bring about victory and life. Taking our cue from Jesus Himself, we should listen long, leave the judgement to Him, and go forward without sinning ourselves.

May we all be wise enough to do so.

Rivers in the desert

"... I give waters in the wilderness and rivers in the desert, to give drink to My people, My chosen. This people I have formed for Myself; they shall declare My praise." Isaiah 43:20b

The area where we live is an irrigated desert, and has been suffering under a severe drought for several years now, making the dirt road up to our  home especially dusty. Even on the days I am diligent enough to dust off the furniture, by late in the day a fine layer has begun forming again. Our cars are in constant need of being washed, just to remove the dust from the road.
On our way into town, we can see the few places where underground springs still poke through leaving small puddles of water where they are, and lush green growth around them. A stark contrast to the many trees that have died because of the drought.
As we approach the end of the drive down the canyon road, the sky looks brown from all the dust that hasn't been washed away because of lack of rain. In addition the air quality in the valley has become increasingly worse, as almond and walnut farmers harvest their crops. The dry soil forms great clouds of dust making it difficult to see and breathe. The only escape is to drive over the mountains towards the coast, or up into the Sierras towards Yosemite where water isn't as scarce.

There is something deeply satisfying standing at the edge of the ocean, near a river or next to a waterfall that exhilarates one's soul. Even thinking about the beautiful sound of the rushing water, causes me to breathe in deeply and exhale slowly.

Water refreshes.

How lovely that our Lord Jesus Christ speaks of Himself as being the living water.

If you recall, the Samaritan woman had come to the well when all of the other women were done, and was surprised when Jesus spoke to her, as Jews had no dealings with Samaritans.  He was sitting next to the well and asked her to give Him a drink. When she expressed her surprise at being asked Jesus revealed the truth to her that the water she gathered at the well would only satisfy temporarily, where those who drank of the water He supplies would never thirst again. (John 4:6-14)

"...a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life." Jesus speaking John 4:14

I love that.  No matter how dry the earth has become because of the drought, here and there we still see evidence of water. Even in the patches in the road where springs have forced their way through asphalt, only to be covered again, have puddles beginning to form.  The water continues to push through.

Sweet evidences of God's provision for the wild animals in the area, and a precious reminder to me that He is still in control.  Even in the severest drought, He provides.

I pray you will find the places of refreshment in your journey and hope, as you drink deeply of the water He supplies.

May He be glorified in all we say and do.

"..whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst.  But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life." ~Jesus

Defining rather than being defined.

"Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith in this grace in which we stand and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, be we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces; perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly." Romans 5:1-5

Life is a journey filled with sorrow and joy, chaos and peace, times that are difficult and times that are easy. Sometimes the road moves gently along shaded paths, where other times it climbs steeply or descends suddenly while the storm rages against us, or the heat threatens to parch our soul.

It is during the difficult patches where we experience the testing of our faith as God refines us more completely into His likeness. It is in these moments that it is most important to define our journey rather than being defined by it.

But what exactly does that mean?

It has been my experience that, too often, when difficulty would hinder my walk, that I would begin to feel stuck as I allowed my circumstances to define me rather than defining my circumstances. Instead of viewing the difficulty as a tool God was using to grow me in His grace and the knowledge of His faithfulness, I would fuss and fume about the situation.

It didn't make things any better.  In fact, the more I complained to Him (and occasionally others) about how frustrated I was because things weren't going according to my plan, the more miserable I became. Blessedly, there came the "Aha" moment when I recognized I had wandered down the path of discontentment and mistrust.  Instead of relaxing in God's plan for my life and allowing Him  

complete control, I realized I had been wrestling with Him over the details.

The more I wrestled, the more weary I became.

But God in His compassion as a loving Father graciously swept me up into His embrace and gently reminded me that He saw the whole, while I only see in part. He told me, again, that He will never leave or forsake me, and that nothing comes into my life without His knowledge or permission. No matter how difficult a situation may appear, He is still in control and I can trust Him completely.

And suddenly like the child that is comforted by the one they love, I found myself seeking His face again and finding grace and love shining from His eyes. There is nothing I can do to earn His love, and nothing that will make Him quit loving me.  I am much more than a sinner saved by grace. Although I may still experience trials and temptations along the way, I am His beloved child and He is leading me home, one step at a time. He will faithfully walk with me the entire way and I can experience His peace and presence throughout the journey.

May you find same true for your journey as well.

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"My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is perfected in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

Seeing things from God's perspective

"For now we see in a mirror, darkly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known." 2 Corinthians 13:12

Do you ever wish that you could pull back far enough from life's circumstances to view things as God views them? You know, the whole parade from the sky view, rather than just the band that is playing loudly right in front of you.

As I watch world events unfold, I find I am more prone to wanting to see things from His perspective  The close up view often appears to be chaotic and without purpose or plan. But then I step back and try to take in the broader view.

Our college group Bible study has been studying the book of  Revelations and it helps me keep the wide angle lens on the world's events. It makes me more eager to share the gospel with those around me, and causes me to keep my heart prepared.

A day of reckoning is coming.

Recent conversations with others who have studied Revelations only affirm that view.

One day, whether it be tonight, tomorrow, or a thousand years from now, we will all stand before our Creator and give account for our lives.  All the questions will be answered and there will be no more time to make amends, forgive someone we need to forgive, or embrace the truth of the sacrificial gift of Jesus Christ. Time as we know it will have come to an end and we will enter into the realm of eternity.  There we will either joyously be invited into the kingdom of God or be cast away to eternal separation and sorrow.

The questions arise: do you know where you'll be? Are you sure of your salvation? Don't be among those to whom Jesus will say "Depart from Me I never knew you."

God is patient and kind and desires that none will be lost. He sees the whole parade, every soul in it, and their hearts.

There's a storm brewing, and He knows exactly when it's time to for the parade to end.

Finding the blessings

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work that you may be perfect and complete lacking nothing. James 1:2-4

I don't know about you, but I am especially thankful these days whenever I am able to find a bit of shade to avoid the heat from the sun. The temperature has been over 100 degrees for some time now, and combined with the severe drought, it feels especially hot. Adding to the tension that comes from being hot and thirsty, there are several wild fires in the area, making the air quality nearly unbearable. The desire to grumble and complain parades itself boldly before me, taunting me with the "if only's" and the "should have's." There's nothing like feeling uncomfortable to make one want to pull out the list of wrongs that make our life seem miserable.

But don't!

Life is filled with difficulties and unpleasantness, and rehearsing them only makes us feel that much more miserable. Grumbling comes naturally to most human beings, and when you can get someone to acknowledge your complaint, then you might even have the opportunity to play the "whose life is more miserable" game. (Sarcasm intended).

Yet, what's the gain?

Do you feel better or worse about your situation?

Now don't misunderstand me, I'm not saying that there is never any reason to feel frustrated with life. We are, after all, human beings working our way through this maze called life. There are dead ends and false leads, and numerous difficulties that can easily distract us from our purpose...which is to give God glory. But press on with courage and hope. He has never forsaken His children, nor will He ever. We can rest confidently in the knowledge that nothing comes to us that hasn't already been filtered through His very loving hands. We may feel uncomfortable in a current situation, but He has a purpose and plan in everything He does.  (If you've never read the book of JOB I highly recommend it. You will see that Satan had to have God's permission to pester Job).

Look for the blessings and offer God thanks for each one you find.  If you can't see any, ask Him to open your eyes to the numerous ways He has blessed you. Stay true to the path He's placed before you, no matter how difficult it might seem at the moment.

Trust Him to see you through, because once you've passed through the narrow place, having had to release some of the baggage that was hindering your progress, you will find you are walking more upright and with greater strength.  The burden was heavy for a moment, but it made you stronger. It may have seemed like the passageway into the future became more narrow, but it caused you to let go of things that kept you from moving forward. You wouldn't turn around and pick up the things you discarded along the way because you discovered they're useless, and they made traveling difficult.
It's that same with our attitude about the difficulties we encounter in life.

Philippians 4:8-10 reminds us to think on the things that are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, any virtue and anything praiseworthy. And with good reason.  These are the things that take our eyes and mind off the negative, and help us to focus on the blessings God has lavished on us each and every day.

And doesn't that just make you want to dance?

So be careful my friends.  Remember we are on a journey, we have been given a task, and given everything we need to complete that task with joy.
May God grant you the eyes see what you need to see so that you may always give Him the praise and glory He's due.


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"For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual host of wickedness in heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor God that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking up the shield o:12-18f faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword o the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Sprit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints." Ephesians 6

The Unseen

"For we walk by faith, not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7

Although I love a grand adventure, I am not a thrill seeker by nature.
Anyone who knows me well, knows I like a plan, or at the very least, a vague idea of how things are going to go. I call myself "Let's plan it Paula".  Of course as life would have it I am married to "Spontaneous Sam". To say this hasn't created some interesting situations in our marriage would be an understatement. Early on in our relationship I recognized that the need for me to be more flexible would be paramount in the survival of our marriage. As aggravating as it was to give up my very controlled sense of well being, and move forward into a greater walk of faith, I am grateful God paired me with my husband who has taught me to trust God on a deeper level.
It hasn't always been an easy journey though.
Learning to surrender my plans for God's plans has been a process which I must submit to every day. I still tend to think things will continue heading a certain direction and find myself surprised when there is a sudden turn or redirect on the path. Embracing the moments I live in, rather than projecting where I think we're headed is a moment by moment decision.
It's the long curves in the road that seem to frustrate me the most. I can see just far enough that I think I know which direction we're going, only to discover it's not always as I thought. Learning to sit back and enjoy the ride is difficult for one who wants to drive.
But faith is a journey and grows with each curve and turn as I trust the outcome to the Lord.
As much as I think I know what is best, or what I really, really want, time and again God has graciously shown me how much greater His plans are than mine.
I have discovered He is always faithful and knows me better than I know myself. In addition He has given me a long view of life, and when I trust Him, I am able to better see things from His perspective and rest in His sufficiency. Every time I have walked boldly into the unseen, even with my knees shaking and my faith feeling feeble and unsteady, He has met me and shown me the greater plan and purpose. It makes walking into the curve easier every day.
Do I know what the future holds? No; but I do know who holds the future and I am confident I can trust Him completely. I know He is able to get me there safely.
My prayer is that you too may you find His faithfulness and love incentive to trust Him and to walk with Him in assurance and peace.
To Him be all honor and glory.

Focus on Truth

"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trust in You. Trust in the LORD forever for in YAH, the LORD is everlasting strength." Isaiah 26:3

Sometimes the world can be a very noisy and distracting place. As one who struggles to stay focused, I find noise a difficult barrier to overcome at times. That is one of the reasons I am so grateful the Lord moved me out of town and up into the canyon eight years ago. The quiet in the canyon helps me to stay focused when I need to do so.

Even so, the canyons has sounds that can momentarily pull my attention away from the task at hand.  This morning when I was settling in to begin working on my latest project (a 365 day devotional) my prayer was that I would have the ability to focus on what I needed to write and not become distracted.

The house was beautifully quiet, and even the puppies had stopped their bantering with one another in the back yard. Blissful, peaceful quiet.

And then I heard the dove.

Immediately my mind raced back to my childhood home and the peaceful sound of the mourning doves on summer days. Although temporarily distracted by their sound, a deep sense of peace washed over my soul.  Doves are shy birds and apparently felt safe enough to share their song with me.

It lasted only a moment, but it was enough to spark a myriad of thoughts, some to be used here, and others for the devotional.

The first thought was how peaceful their song made me feel. I have only heard them sing in the quiet places where they feel their safety isn't threatened. Unlike the noisy jays and crows who raucously announce their presence throughout the day, doves are quiet and cautious.    

My second thought was how easy it is to become distracted even in this place of quiet. It made me even more determined to created guidelines for myself so that I can effectively work to complete the tasks before me.

Distraction is a major problem in this world, but it doesn't have to be the victor.

Each of us has the ability to choose where we let our minds go. No one has the power to force us to think anything other than what we choose to think. That is why it is so imperative to fill our minds with truth. Truth is the light that chases away the darkness and hushes the lies.

There is a story behind the picture I used in this piece. We were traveling through Nevada and a major lightning storm raged over head. There were times the rain pelted our windshield so ferociously that our wipers had a hard time keeping it clear, making it nearly impossible to see the road. But as quickly as the storm came up, it passed.  

And so it is with life.  Sometimes the storms of adversity will come up suddenly and rage against us, making us feel as though every attempt to see the pathway clearly is being hidden. Don't despair. God is still in control. Take a breath and fix Your focus firmly on Him.  He will guide you safely through.

Don't let the distractions keep you from completing the task He has for you.

His plans are perfect.

His timing is impeccable.

He is trustworthy.

Press on in confidence.

Living water

Lately I have been feeling the strain of living in an area where rain is scarce. The irrigated dessert just doesn't have as many rivers and lakes as I would like, and the ocean is two plus hours away. The heat of summer and the dry conditions make me feel cranky and agitated.  I love being around water and seeing how green it makes things in the summer in the areas where it is allowed to flow freely. Being on a well, or in an area where there are water restrictions limits one though.
How grateful I am that God has supplied living water for my soul through Jesus Christ.
Before I sat to write this I had to take time with my Savior to refresh my parched spirit. Things of this world and the  summer heat had begun to dedehydrate me spiritually and I could feel the drying wind blow on my soul. I quickly ran to the place where I knew I would find comfort and refreshment.
The river of grace is a continual stream flowing freely from the throne of God and always restores the one who seeks refuge there.
The world's system is a constant drain on the people who dwell here. We must remember to take adequate time in the waterfall of grace so that we can effectively minister to those who thirst for truth.
May each of us drink deeply of the living water that Jesus supplies and look for those who are dying of thirst so we might show them the way to the place of eternal refreshment.

"Whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water syringing up into everlasting life." ~Jesus as recorded in John 4:14

Be steadfast in faith

"Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world." 1 Peter 5:8,9

The enemy knew it was only a matter of time, and his time was short.  He didn't mind waiting for the right moment though; the children were becoming complacent.

He had watched as the littlest among them had been trying to keep the others awake and watchful, but her efforts were beginning to seem futile. He would prowl the perimeters and wait.

A low growl escaped one of his helpers.

"Silence!"  he hissed. "They mustn't hear. They must not suspect our presence."

The children yawned and stretched. The sun was warm and their bellies were full. Life seemed complete.

The littlest started to whimper again, something about feeling danger. She thought she'd heard a growl. The others gazed in her direction lazily.

"Don't be such a silly, frightened little thing."  the oldest and laziest chided her. "It's probably just your stomach. You've hardly eaten a thing.  Isn't it to your liking?" he teased her sarcastically while reaching for another handful.

"No! No, it's not that" she argued. "It's not my stomach.  I've eaten, although I won't take more. It makes me tired.  I heard something though.  Listen!!" she implored the others, leaning forward, straining to hear.

But her warning fell on ears that refused to hear.

On the fringes, the enemy lay low.

Silent.

Waiting.

Ready to devour his prey.

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I wrote the piece above several years ago, but it seems even more appropriate today as I watch the world unravel into greater images of insanity of man's inhumanity to man. It makes my heart sad and deepens my commitment to pray for the young people of this generation.

What a sweet blessing to receive a picture from my dear friend Rhonda Stoppe ( #noregretswoman #momsraisingsonstobeen ) that she'd taken at the camp where she and her husband spoke this past weekend. In it there are six young boys on their knees praying for their families, their friends, their future.

Our future.

I cannot begin to express to you the pure joy and comfort her picture brought to my soul. It speaks volumes.

Not only are these boys praying, but they are young boys.  None of them are yet in their teens, yet their hearts are already burdened to pray for others. 

What a beautiful sight and so desperately needed for this generation.

I am so glad to know there are young men and young women who are taking up the banner for Christ and interceding in prayer on behalf of others.  As the world continues its spiral into the future, they are going to need to be well versed in God's word and fully equipped with the full armor.

Each of us need to take the battle seriously. This world is not our home.

Have you girded yourself for battle?

Are you steadfastly and diligently watching for signs of the enemy and fervently resisting him?

Don't become complacent.

The battle is real.

And the best place to fight it is on our knees in prayer seeking God's will.

May He guide, guard and protect us all.  To Him be all glory and praise.

"These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." ~ Jesus as recorded in John 16:33

Well, it happened again.  Another tragic shooting on a high school campus.
http://www.foxnews.com/us/2018/05/18/texas-high-school-shooting-leaves-at-least-8-dead-suspect-in-custody-report.html

It grieves my heart when I hear of things like this.
I am grieved of heart every time I hear how sin has captured someone in its snare and created chaos.

But it happens, again and again, and it's been going on since the beginning of man's existence here on earth.

The enemy of our souls prowls about like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. One of the most subtle tactics of the devil is to create a false sense of security, causing individuals to  become preoccupied with things, or complacent, rather than being watchful. But Scripture is very clear that we need to be ever aware, watchful and vigilant.  (1 Peter 5:8)

We wouldn't go out in the jungle without thought of the dangers, yet sadly far too many people go about their day with no sense of danger or care for themselves or those they love.

We are reminded in Ephesians 6:10-17 to put on the full armor of God, to take our position and stand
In 1Thessolonias 5:18 we are told to pray without ceasing.

This doesn't guarantee that no tragedy will ever befall those we love or ourselves. but it does empower us to face whatever may come our way and keeps our focus fixed on the Lord's face.

Sadly there are many in this world who will succumb to the distractions and lies of the enemy and he will consume them. Our only defense is to stand fast in the Lord and to continually pursue the path of peace...in spite of the noise of battle around us.

God is still in control even in the midst of the storm.

Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus. In doing so others will follow your gaze and find peace, comfort and hope in Him.

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Please pray diligently for all who were involved in this latest tragedy and continue to pray for revival in our Nation. 

Look and listen carefully

"And behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but he LORD was not in the fire, and after the fire a still small voice." 1 Kings 19:11,12

Today was one of those days where I needed extra focus to keep my footing.  It seems of late, that not only is my physical balance a bit off, but I am more acutely aware of all the negative things in life. There seems to be a constant barrage of distracting sights and sounds.

It wearies my soul.

The noise in life had become increasingly loud, and sadly I had momentarily allowed my focus to shift off my Savior's face and onto the wind and the waves.

As I struggled to rise above the tide of discouragement that assaulted me from every angle, I fought valiantly to hear the peaceful chords of encouragement from the LORD.  The more diligently I sought refuge at His feet, the clearer the message became.

"Be still.  You can rest in me." (Psalm 46:10 and Matthew 11:28)

Immediately peace began pouring through my soul. I was finally able to take my eyes off the storm and refocus my attention on the Lord.

It takes deliberate action to stay focused on what is true when adversity swirls around us.  The enemy of our souls uses every tactic to distract us from the peace the Lord continually offers. But the Lord delights in those who seek Him.


"Seek the LORD while He may be found.  Call upon Him while He is near." Isaiah 55: 6
"Come aside by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while." Mark 6:31

And so, once again I have found refuge in my Savior's embrace as He reminds me there is NOTHING outside of His control.  Even the fiercest storm is calmed at His command.

My prayer is that each of you will find solace in the knowledge of how deeply God loves you. May you continually find the strength and courage to carry on in the mission field of life to which you've been assigned by Him. When the winds of adversity howl and swirl around you, press into His embrace and listen carefully.  He has promised He will never leave or forsake His beloved children.

Above all else, rest in confidence that this life is but a vapor and eternal joy and peace await for all of us who truly seek Him. To Him be the glory and honor forever.

The Eyes/I's say it all

On the wall in the guest bedroom hangs a picture of my mom and dad.  Of all the pictures I have of them, it is one of my favorites.  Not only is it one of the last pictures of the two of them together, but it is the expression on their faces that makes it most dear. At the time of its taking, Daddy's health was already beginning to fade, and they knew they had limited time together left on this earth.  Yet you wouldn't see that in their faces.  They are both looking intently into the lens of the camera so they seem to be looking you right in the eye.

And oh, the message their eyes send.

Even though you can detect the slightest discomfort in her eyes, knowing her time with Daddy was drawing closer to the end, and in his, the sorrow of leaving her and the rest of us; the greater reflection is of deep, deep love. On the days when the weariness of the world threatens to steal my peace, one look at their picture and I am encouraged t continue to fight the good fight, just as they did.

Neither of them were particularly "religious" in their faith, but the love for Christ and family was demonstrated daily in their lives.  They lived the Golden Rule. "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." (see Matthew 7:12) was carried out daily in their lives.

As I ponder the deep love they showered upon me during my childhood and as an adult, I am overcome with longing for their presence.  I miss them  And yet, because of the courageous way they faced life, and death, I am encouraged to do the same. You see, they both knew the power of God's gift in the life, death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ.  They knew that His "I's" carried the power of God, and they followed Him in confidence.

His "I's" say:

• "I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me." John 14:6
• "I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for apart from Me you can do nothing." John 15:5
• "I am the resurrection and the life.  He who believes in me, though he may die, shall live.  And whoever believes in Me shall never die." John 11:25,26
• "I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd gives His life for the sheep." John 10:11
• "I am the door.  If anyone enters by Me he will be saved, and will go in and out an find pasture." John 10:9
• "I am the bread of life.  He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst." John 6:35

My parents eyes reflect confidence and love in the "I's" of the One Who loves us best.  And in His grace and mercy we can rest.

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Read these verses and contemplate what they mean "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved. He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God" John 3:16-21

All of us will ultimately face our final days here on earth and then stand before God. Are you ready? My parents were able to confidently face their death and separation from one another, because they knew Jesus Christ personally and had accepted the gift of salvation.

How about you? Are you saved?

Do you know the peace of God? Is it reflected in your eyes?

If you have any question about it, why not make today the day of salvation. "There is none righteous, no, not one." Romans 3:10  Good works won't get anyone into heaven. It is by God's grace alone "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast." Ephesians 2:8

A simple heart felt prayer acknowledging your sin, your need for a Savior and inviting Jesus to be Lord of your life opens the door to eternal life. 

Won't you accept His invitation to eternal peace and rest?

"Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden,,and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me , for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.." ~ Jesus as recorded in Matthew 11:28,29

The legacy we leave

"Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Jesus as recorded in John 14:27

I'm feeling a bit melancholy today as I try to write, and I'm trying to put my finger on the source. It's not the weather. Here in the canyon the sky is a gorgeous blue, and there are hints of spring already beginning to show. I don't think it's lack of sleep, or health, as I've gotten plenty of rest and finally beat the bug that was threatening to knock me down. Having had more time at home recently, I don't think it's caused by the greater organization I'm managing to bring to our home either.  I have been sorting through mementos from my brother's estate though, and just realized this is the anniversary of the day when my Daddy went home to the Lord. All of this has caused me to deeply miss those who have finished their race. It has also made me take a closer look at the things I still want to purge from our home to lighten the load on our children when my husband and I cross the finish line. Even though the subject isn't pleasant or comfortable, it is one that I've begun discussing with the kids and the older grandchildren. 

There is a deep desire to instill confidence that the separation is temporary and to ease their minds and sorrows when the time comes.

It makes me think of the sermons over the last few weeks at church where our pastor has been discussing Jesus's final days with His disciples. He was telling them of His deep love for them, and how would send a Comforter to be with them.(see John 13-17 for greater insight)
Going through things from my brother's estate and looking at mementos left from other family members has brought a ton of memories, but the comfort comes from knowing I will see them again when I cross the finish line. I want to be certain my children and grandchildren know that death is imminent for all of us, but that we can rejoice knowing we will be reunited on the other side.
I want the message that I leave behind to bear testimony of God's deep abiding love and the access He has provided for all who are willing to accept the gift He offers through a relationship with Jesus Christ.
I want the sorrow of those I love to be temporary, and their joy to be in the confidence of reunion on the peaceful shores of eternity.
There will be plenty of "stuff" for them to sort through and share, but giving them hope is the best legacy I can leave.

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? hall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written: "For Your sake we are killed all day long; We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter."  Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angles nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:35-39

What's that smell?

"Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and through us diffuses the fragrance of His knowledge in ever place. For we are to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are perishing. To the one we are the aroma of death to death, and to the other the aroma of life to life. And who is sufficient for these things? For we are not, as so many, peddling the word of God; but as of sincerity, but as from God, we speak in the sight of in Christ." 2 Corinthians 2:14-17

"For we do not preach ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord, and ourselves your servants for Jesus' sake. For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. Be we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us."
 2 Corinthians 4:5-7

A sweet memory crossed my mind this morning while chatting with a friend on social media.  She was telling me about the cabin she had inherited from her parent's estate and had posted a picture of the outhouse among other pictures. I immediately thought of the cabin my family owned when I was a child and the outhouse there.  Although the memory of the cabin was sweet and even funny as the outhouse had space for two, the memory of the noxious smell wasn't pleasant. I learned to hold my breath for a long time in those days.

It's interesting how smell is such a powerful sense which can cause either a positive or negative response.

Some of my favorite scents create strong emotions.  I love the smell of rain, the ocean, pine trees, fresh baked bread, meat grilling on the BBQ, lavender and peppermint essential oils, and the list goes on. These scents make me smile even thinking of them

The memory of the outhouse however does not make me smile.  It stunk, as do many things that cause us to recoil even at the thought of them. I won't post them here, but I'm sure each of you immediately thought of the smell of things that were unpleasant and even may have made you feel nauseous.

I was recently given a necklace that holds essential oil.  I love being able to smell the peppermint throughout the day, and enjoy the reaction of others who are in near proximity to me.  They often smile and remark at how they enjoy the scent of peppermint as well.  Things that smell good draw people while things that smell bad, repulse and push away.

So it is with our walk with Christ. The sweet fragrance of Christ draws those who recognize it, or are longing to remove themselves from the stench of sin and death.

The question arises; are we being a vessel that allows the sweet fragrance of His mercy and grace to be shared?

As we step into yet another year I encourage all to take a moment to reflect on the message you want  presented to your sphere of influence. Do you want those around you to be drawn to the Savior? Is the message in your every day walk one that draws or repels?

Breathe deeply of the love which God richly pours out and allow the peace that you feel be motivation for sharing it with others.  May the response be one of delight and desire that draws all into a deeper relationship with Him.

Into the new

This morning as I looked out my window I was reminded once again of the numerous blessings the Lord has bestowed on us.  I love foggy mornings in the canyon, because the stillness always causes me to reflect more deeply upon the nearness of my Savior.  It is always humbling to realize that He desires intimacy with me.  Far too often I get caught up in the rush and crush of the world and fail to spend adequate time sitting at His feet, listening to the love song He is always singing. Mornings like today help me to slow down and really listen.

As I was sitting at the table doing my morning devotional and pondering the close of another year and beginning of a new one, my eyes were drawn to Isaiah 57:15 "For thus says the High and Lofty One who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: "I dwell in the high and holy place, with him who as a contrite and humble spirit. To revive the spirit of the humble and to revive the heart of the contrite ones." I was then drawn to Isaiah 66:1&2 "Thus says the LORD: "Heaven is my throne, and earth is My footstool, where is the house that you will build me? And where is the place of My rest? For all those things My hand has made, and all those things exists" says the LORD. "But on this one thing will I look: on him who is poor and of a contrite spirit, and who trembles at My word."

What an awesome and amazing thought!

The God of all creation, Elohim, Who sits with heaven as a throne and Whose footstool is the earth, yet He looks on the one who is poor and of a contrite spirit, and who trembles at His word. 

Think about that for just a moment.

I mean, really think about it.

Today the reality of His greatness and my insignificance in the realm of all creation settled just a bit deeper in my soul.

You see, I am not always as grateful for the things He brings into my life.  Although I know Scriptures remind me to be thankful in all things (Ephesian 5:20) and to be joyful in all circumstances (James 1:2), I still struggle. In many ways I am like the children of Israel who He delivered from captivity, only to have them whine in the desert...even in the midst of blessings. (For a quick synopsis read Psalm 78). When He first moved us to the canyon, I sadly admit to being a bit like Lots wife who looked back over her shoulder to see what was being left behind. (Genesis 19:26) Thankfully He didn't turn me into a pillar of salt, but gently and graciously revealed to me the blessing He was pouring out.

Realizing this always humbles me.

So many times I have whined in the midst of being stretched spiritually, or held my hand out asking for greater than He has already provided.

Forgive me Lord.

Whenever I look at His enormous grace towards me always creates a deeper love for Him and greater security and peace of spirit than I can describe.  It is the what I always find when I choose to dwell in the place of contentment in the hollow of His hand.

As the new year begins to unfold before me, my only desire is to go deeper into my relationship with Him.  I am so very thankful for the love He has lavished on me and those I love. I pray earnestly that each will comprehend the vastness of His love, and will desire greater fellowship as well.

The message of Christmas is that God brought hope into the world for all mankind through His Son Jesus Christ.  The message needs to go out boldly in the new year. There are still so many who don't know.

May each of us have eyes to see the path God puts before us, ears to hear the love song He is always singing and hands that are willing to do His will. May He be glorified in everything we say and do.